Hi Squiddy

So many things on my mind

2012-02-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

LOL SO CUTE YEAH!

Underworld is AWESOME!!!! :D So glad I watched it with Krist hahahaha but kinda bummed that there's gonna be a 5th movie! Is it trying to beat the Harry Potter series or what >:/

I wish everybody will remember me for who I am. I keep having this idea to write to every person in my life and somehow I will die after I write my last word. Weird.

I have a craving to sit on a swing and being pushed by someone now.

I will complete the book that V gave to me when I wake up later on my birthday. Should I sleep now or wait for 12am?

2012-02-05T22:29:00.002+08:00

Lol. Recently I received an SMS from Ms Seah asking me if I would like to teach chemistry as a relief teacher. I would if I was good enough! And I think I lack the confidence and assurance that I'll definitely help these kids. For subjects like English it'll be easy but chemistry is just... ARGH! My tuition teacher would be hysterical if he knew.

I think the end is coming, but I'm not overly sad or grieving over it. I may actually survive the fall and rise even stronger. Maybe I'm just being self denial.

Anyway my birthday is coming soon and I have no feeling about it. My teenage days are numbered. And I'm more excited for my birthday next year cos it'll be on the first day of cny! :D

Google it

2012-02-01T23:16:00.003+08:00

This is so true; I am not a very observant person. Anyway I am so tired now and still got tuition tomorrow. I guess my week screwed up from Tuesday since I went for that volunteer orientation. You know it stinks when you are so hyper and enthusiastic about being a volunteer, then you realise that the people you are volunteering with are not as awesome as what you'd expect them to be. There's even one smart alec in the group and my impression of the person is extremely bad. Nevetheless, I will do my utmost best to be a role model to the children and grasp as much knowledge as I can during the sessions :) But seriously hope I can skip all the following volunteer sessions.

Went out with Krist today hahaha it was awesome :D

2012-01-26T01:27:00.002+08:00

So funny I accidentally clicked on my archives and then I remembered why I adore and respect J so much. Reminds me of the reason why I just kept going.

I've been fighting for so many things in my life just like how everyone does. But I think I am more happy than most people because I have a special ability known as Cherish. In this manner, I leave no space for what ifs and regrets.

Damn I miss J like crazy.

The musical trilogy masterpiece

2012-01-24T00:28:00.003+08:00

The awesomeness of these 3 songs are that they are a trilogy! By Panic at the Disco

First song: Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off

Boy dates a girl but she cheated on him.

Second Song: But it's better if you do

Boy goes to strip club to forget about the girl, but realises that his heart is still with her.

Third Song: I write sins not tragedies

Groom overhears gossip about the bride having an affair and finds out the truth before they were supposed to tie the knot.

ABSOLUTELY GENIUS! Hahaha I am mind blown! Never have I thought that these three songs were interlinked though I used to listen to them a lot! Anyway I think the main story is simply that this guy has bad luck with love. It's supposedly an analogy of the life of the guitarist Ryan Ross. Lyrics below!

2012-01-21T00:24:00.001+08:00

Don't know why but when I see him sing I just felt like an emotional tsunami is crashing onto me.

Top 2 idioms of the day

2012-01-16T23:09:00.002+08:00

1. Empty vessels make the loudest noise.

Seriously, those people who have no authority and respect at all just keep ranting and insisting on their views. The reason why I don't wanna rebut is not because you make sense, but because it will only exaggerate into a big drama which started from nothing. Truth is, whenever you speak, I just listen with one ear and remove it with the other ear. You were nothing in my eyes, so don't expect any difference now.

2. A leopard never changes its spots.

Some people used to be irritating, and sadly, they are still irritating. I hate it when my inboxes are being spammed with your freaking name - it's definitely not my favourite! Damn. Just make your own decisions, make smart guesses instead of asking for every single detail, and LEAVE ME ALONE!!! >:(

I just feel so damn pissed now I can strangle a cow. Everybody needs to learn that in order to command respect, you have to respect others first. By not respecting others' privacy and ideologies, you guys can go speak to an audience of puppets cos the reaction they will give is the same as what we will give to your bullshit.

My personality test

2012-01-14T20:27:00.002+08:00

Julia's personality type: "Groundbreaking Thinker"
Creative, resourceful and intellectually quick. Good at a broad range of things. Enjoy debating issues and may be into "one-upmanship". They get very excited about new ideas and projects, but may neglect the more routine aspects of life. Generally outspoken and assertive. They enjoy people and are stimulating company. Excellent ability to understand concepts and apply logic to find solutions.

Careers that could fit Julia include:
Entrepreneurs, lawyers, psychologists, photographers, consultants, sales represenatives, actors, engineers, scientists, inventors, marketers, computer programmers, comedians, computer analysts, credit investigators, journalists, psychiatrists, public relations, designers, writers, artists, musicians, politicians

I seem to be able to work as anything except teaching and childcare haha.

The Addams Family

2012-01-08T22:21:00.005+08:00

DAMN FUNNY HAHAHAHA! Watching my all-time childhood favourite The Addams Family! :D Really good memories of the show haha! They're all so uniquely charming! :)

Click to watch ;)

Just maybe

2012-01-08T02:13:00.001+08:00

Just feel like everything is toppling now. I don't wanna do it but I'm forced to cos of our friendship. You take people for granted and expect us to tolerate your stinking attitude. But maybe birds of the same feather flock together. Maybe I'm equally self-centred and irritable. Maybe I'm just useless.

Magic in my hands!

2012-01-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

Now that I have the world in my palm, prepare for world domination!! Muahaha! >:D The first thing I'll do if I ever owned the world is to tear down national barriers and all forms of discrimination, cos today's world is simply too ugly to be in. I'd wish that people are judged according to talent rather than paper qualifications too. Wouldn't the world be a better place if everyone isn't judged by superficial qualities, but for their personalities? :)

And check out my new nails again hahaha :P

2012-01-04T10:38:00.006+08:00

HAHAHA

I kinda like this new blogskin; keep looking at it! Hope I get a job soon!!!! Really really hope to be able to work at SR North (which is super duper near my house haha!) Going for another nail interview later, really hope I get it too? Haha! But if not, I'll just sign up for a manicure workshop! Really wanna learn the skill!!!! :D

just some random rantings and apparently now i have to write a title to make this new blogskin look more appealing :S

2012-01-02T01:42:00.003+08:00

W used to scan his middle finger and money to me

Said it'll be awesome if I can send money to him that way

And he can send his lunches over too

If I could have a tattoo I'd put the atlas on my palm. This way, I'll have the world in my hands. *Going to draw it tomorrow or something*
823 days
Just remembered about the longest last letter I made with E which lasted 25 days. It was a compilation of letters we used to pass to each other in class. That was when we were still close. I still love her though.
Planning to write a letter to thyself as a means of noting down my annual goals.

Happy belated new year haha :)

2011-12-29T23:46:00.002+08:00

The loopholes of education

Went out with Krist and Ly yesterday for dinner, and we talked about everything which made me reallyyyyyyy happy like a fool ♥ Then I went back thinking of the happy things in secondary school which I almost forgotten :)

List of tiny bits of happiness lurking in secondary school

1. Almost blowing up the chem lab with H every week.

2. Washing the utensils while C cooks the food during home econs.

3. Pouring wood glue on the freaking D&T table and placing a wood file on the splotch.

4. Going to the toilet every lesson.

5. Hs pulling Gy's white hair with his pliers everytime Gy falls asleep.

6. Walking around with Krist during PE class when I'm not playing soccer.

7. Kicking Bp's ass with the football.

8. Talking to Bp about Kishidan and Manga in between lessons.

9. Doodling everywhere while waiting for school to start.

10. Tania and Twinnie!

11. Woke up at 4.44am cos of H's message which was not important at all.

12. The short and sweet note from H which motivates me till today.

13. K carrying brains all the way up to class cos he fell on her and sprained her ankle.

14. Mdm Faridah always asking me when the hell will I be with Jy.

15. All the stupid things that H did to me to almost make me cry (And he's still v proud of it! >:/)

16. Pulling Jh's leg hair during math class HAHA!

17. Jx, me and H family of sticks.

18. Follow K to the toilet every time she stains o_o

19. Studying at mac with W and arguing that corn cup was actually cup corn.

20. Council board making committee - our rollercoaster board!

21. TAF club with Ly and sotong haha!

22. Father Abraham had seven children :D

23. OBS and how many times I got capsized in a semi-floating canoe.

24. Annual personality tests and the differing results.

25. M singing and saying 4D numbers like a radio.

26. T and I teaching Tania vulgarities.

27. All the times we tried to kill Mr something I forgot (the worthless D&T piece of sh*t)

28. The stupid things W and I did during D&T

29. Chasing and feeding cats in school.

30. Getting duped by all sorts of people but then getting rescued by another group of angels

31. First day of school where I was completely lost and only had Jh with me.

32. Taking bus 315 to Serangoon Interchange when we could walk there in 3 minutes.

33. Walking to school everyday to save bus money for Macs.

34. Teaching Mr Hou English while he taught me Chinese.

35. Being extremely grossed out whenever Bp made skeletons out of rubber dust.

36. Saying the pledge wrongly and getting caught by H who isn't even a Singaporean.

37. Making at least one mistake every single time I made the announcement while getting away with it.

38. Racial harmony day!!!

39. Escaping council duty with Krist.

40. Eating Khong Guan biscuits with Tania in the council room to save pocket money HAHA

41. Studying with Jh, Xl and Jy in the library though they were checking out girls instead.

42. Milufy :)

43. All my daughters hahaha.

44. The one and only time I cried in school :'(

45. Tv

46. W - a huge part of my secondary school life

47. Detention duties muahaha.

48. H, K and F HAHAHA.

49. INTERCLASS SCRABBLE COMPETITION WITH W EVERY SINGLE YEAR (OMG LOVE IT - Gets more fun as the years go by!)

50. Weird boy from St. Pats

51. Taboo with brains and Cass!

52. INTERCLASS GEOGRAPHY COMPETITION WITH H AND A HAHAHAHAHA

53. Art club AKA gossip session!

54. Air rifling (I was damn serious and loving it like crazy)

55. Being the only English-speaking person in CLDDS

56. Mr Leong talking and joking with me for the whole of secondary school!

57. Math Olympiad and the boy who said it was as easy as pie -_- Totally owned those cocky assholes who thought they could do better HA!

58. Sexuality education with H wth

59. Mr Lim, Physics, and Dot dot! :D

60. All my awesome English teachers excluding Mdm Komathi who nearly cost me my A1

61. Times where the guys kept laughing at (hehe)'s armpit hair

62. Sudoku battle every Monday with Jh and H, and during Chinese class with Mr Lin!

63. Having the same bag, water bottle, pencilbox, etc as C

64. First time I saw a catfight in school haha

65. Getting scolded by Ms Ming over a stupid rumour brains started -_-

66. 10 kids??!??!??!!!??!

67. All the overseas trips - Jodi!!!!!! :D

68. All the times I just wanted to kill H hahaha

69. M telling me how H bullies her at home and I am her substitute in school -_-

70. SITTING BESIDE H FOR 2 YEARS IN A ROW - HELL!!! And in front of him during sec 4 :(

71. The time where Zc's face was like a strawberry when she stained and H was like damn shy to tell me that she stained cos I didn't know what was going on

72. Zc telling me she had a string of couple rings from all her ex-bfs o_o

73. Xl HAHAHA

74. D asking me why was I so scared of him and I don't know why but I just ran away haha.

75. J and her chain of bfs and us gossiping about it.

76. D THE WEIRDO IN AIR RIFLE AND KRIST'S RUBBISH HAHAHAHA.

Okay kinda lazy to write the rest but maybe secondary school was quite fun haha! Hmm the main characters in secondary school are probably Krist, W, H, Tania, Jh, brains, and Jy! HAHA. Every time I think about H I just feel like wth I need to kill this guy soon. But he's my angel no doubt about that - I wouldn't go to church if I didn't meet him. I miss W.

2011-12-29T22:01:00.003+08:00

This will probably be quite a long post. Brace yourselves.

I'm a realist, I always have been. Usually I work with my head, but this time the heart is interfering. There're some things I know I have to let go though I wish I don't have to. I can't bear to. I haven't been the best person but at least I know I've tried my best to do so. Who can define what is love and what is not? Is there such thing as "in between"? I don't know, cos I've always been very clear of my emotions. As for you, this is one big question you need to ask yourself.

You've always been this hopeless romantic, watching all the sappy love shows and probably wishing your life has just this tiny bit of an adventure that is movie-worthy. But you gotta know, reality and fantasy do not always coincide. And when they do, you're probably in your subconscious state of mind. So can you just wake up and be in where you belong?

It's been so long and you're still confused. You're not sure if this is worth the commitment, but how would you know if you don't try? You're not sure about "the one", but is there even any concept of a person being "the one"? Obviously, I don't believe in such ideologies cos these are the certain things where you only figure out once you're dead.

My idea of death is where I will ascend to Heaven, meet God, and then we will flip through the pages of my life story together where He will tell me my mistakes, what I've done well, and what can be improved. I believe that then would be when he'd tell me who my Mr.Right is. Before that, anybody can be my Mr.Right.

Your idea of Ms.Right is when you are with the person, you have that spark thing going on. But c'mon, sparklers only last for one minute. What makes you think that your spark can go on forever? Sparks are for flings not for forever.

So I guess once I haven tidied up my emotions, I'll pack it up in a nice bag before leaving the room filled with memories of me and you. At least that's what my mind says.

You wanna hear what my heart says? It says: Just keep going. Life is a marathon. Bear with it and your patience will bear sweet fruit. You know your love can last forever don't let it extinguish so easily.

Who am I kidding? Nobody but myself.

2011-12-27T16:19:00.001+08:00

Damn true

2011-12-25T16:50:00.001+08:00

Merry Xmas everybody!!!!!
Haha. I think it's gonna be awesome! Im at my uncle's house now (that's my cousin Pearl in a really pretty dress!!) and going out later haha! Loving life! :D

2011-12-23T00:35:00.001+08:00

DON'T WATCH 50/50

It's a crappy show, seriously.

I just watched In the skin I live in, and it's kinda freaky with a lot of M18 scenes which I skipped all, but seriously, not sure how I'm gonna sleep :/

2011-12-18T22:49:00.002+08:00

LOL IDIOT

I DIDN'T GET TO SEE LINUS!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( Saw my primary school friend CH though! HAHAHAHA I AM SO GLAD TO SEE HIM!!! :D Loved the memories when I kept asking him to shut up every time he opened his mouth or sang opera in class. I remember he used to say I must be his partner in everything when I said he's my sitting partner only.

The poor army guys had to march in the rain! Hahaha D looked super serious and he held the gun so straight compared to the rest of the army boys! HAHA LIKE A KID!!! His parents were like :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD when they saw him hahaha so funny. Can't imagine how my parents would be when Josh enters the army o_o I think every parent is the same just that they look different and sound different.

2011-12-15T22:08:00.002+08:00

Attention seeking fools only attract the like-minded. This is yawningly obvious on facebook where people repost stuff that they think will generate "hoo-ha", but seriously, nobody gives a damn.

I am going to see some army thing tomorrow and I'm not sure if I will survive tomorrow but I hope so ya! It's some sergeant upgrade thing and I don't think I will recognise everybody cos it'll just be a patch of green and a stench of mucky perspire. Hope that I can see Linus though!!! :D

2011-12-15T00:33:00.003+08:00

Some people search high and low for someone to love when the person is already in front of them.

WHY?

I don't get it.

I never felt this cos I always cherished everyone around me and I think I've always been loved by all my buddies, but there's this boy I've been reading about from the past two years and he's been yearning for his ex-gf for so long when she clearly states she may never find love ever again.

WHY?

Why be so hard on yourself when the boy is right in front of you? Some people don't even have the luxury of being loved but you are ignoring the fact that you have a gentleman willing to shower every single drop of his love onto you.

I'm just saying it cos I think everyone should cherish and embrace love, at least until it is truly gone.

2011-12-14T10:35:00.002+08:00

Went out with the ladies last night. Can't believe how everyone has grown and matured, but it was really gratifying to see the metamorphosis in everyone! :) Hope that when I get to go to the uni, I'll be equally or even more competent than them! :D

2011-12-10T18:34:00.001+08:00

For all the kpop lovers! Drew this for my sis and her friends went gaga looking at them hahaha

2011-12-10T01:58:00.001+08:00

Insane Xmas mood lol hope it'll be a happy one :)

2011-12-09T14:34:00.000+08:00

2011-12-09T00:44:00.001+08:00

My new nails! Waiting for Xmas to come along before I draw my Xmas characters! Haha! Shall post a super junior one I am doing for my sis soon!

2011-11-24T00:02:00.001+08:00

Damn no mood to study. Can't believe As is ending so quickly.

2011-10-30T20:27:00.001+08:00

Happy Halloween in advance!!!! Hahahaha. Been to Clarke Quay and saw many cool people!

Saw:
Thousands of devils
Grim reapers
Pirates
Mario & Luigi (see my pic haha!)
Lady Gaga
Potianak
Butcher
Leprechaun
Transsexuals o.o
Skulls
Inmates
Terrorists
Arabians (costume)
Madara and Itachi
Clowns
And many more! I've decided that if I were to go next year, I'll be a pikachu!!!! :D :D :D

2011-10-28T22:26:00.001+08:00

Cute? It's a spoink drawn by kenneth! Kinda scared As are sooo soon and I'm like neither here not there so ya. But will still keep going, gonna get my As!

2011-10-08T13:47:00.001+08:00

Lol I dreamt that I met 3 teachers one at a time who told me what I've done and what my future lies, but I forgot what they said. And sadly none of the teachers was Mr Oh.. Lol I was thinking where was he in my dream! I asked the third teacher is there anyone I have yet to meet, then I poofed into my house and I met this shadow who said he was my future husband. Lol.

My dream is like the story of Scrooge's Christmas and The Five People You Meet In Heaven, and my husband is a cheeky shadow man. 

2011-09-22T15:44:00.002+08:00

In fiction and folklore, a doppelgänger (German "double walker") (pronounced [ˈdɔpəlˌgɛŋɐ] ( listen)) is a paranormal double of a living person, typically representing evil or misfortune. In the vernacular, the word has come to refer to any double or look-alike of a person.

2011-09-11T17:20:00.001+08:00

Can't wait to feel so light again.

2011-09-06T20:45:00.004+08:00

Got back my prelims. Not as good as what I targeted to achieve, but at least I've improved!!! By quite a fair bit!!! :D GP fell though! :( Hahaha I'm one of the most improved students for physics with 20.2% improvement hahahaha wth!!! That's only cos I got a U for mid years cos there was no time to study!!!! AND I FINALLY PASSED CHEM WOOHOO! Though I improved math, the improvement could be much better.. I SCORED 10/11 FOR COMPLEX LOL USUALLY ONLY GOT 2/8 HEHEHEHE But econs.. LOL. Improved by 7% but still fail -_- How I wish I can work miracles during my big As :D

I realised that my biggest mistake in prelims is my carelessness! :(

Physics

1. Pressed GC wrongly

Chem

1. Didn't read question properly.. Hence writing wrong formula..

2. Wrote different answer in P1 from what I wrote in the question paper :O

Math

1. Copied questions wrongly

2. Missed out a few questions

3. Wrote negative as positive

4. Chose the wrong graph for regression

5. Pressed GC wrongly

6. Forgot to change binomial sign properly

Econs

1. Mixed up the market failure MPC and MPB curves!!!!!! >:(

2. Mr Tan underlined my error (confusion between depreciation and appreciation approach) in the paper and said I could have done MUCH better if I didn't make that careless mistake! :(

I MUST ERADICATE ALL CARELESS MISTAKES FOR PRE AS AND A LEVELS!!!!!!!

2011-08-30T13:26:00.002+08:00

My house reeks of durian.. >:(

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MALAY BUDDIES AND THOSE WHO ARE ENJOYING THE PUBLIC HOLIDAY! HAHAHAHA

So true! Haha

2011-08-26T00:08:00.002+08:00

It sucks when you're reminded about someone you know you can't have. Sucks more when you know you could have had everything but you gave it all away. I'm so filled with remorse every single time I see your face, and I know deep down inside I'm a demon for being so cruel, but every man is selfish and I gotta do what I gotta do. But, boy, you're so handsome both inside and out. I wish you'll find someone better and more worthy. It was a pleasure meeting you, and farewell to you too.

2011-08-18T00:03:00.004+08:00

On the first day of school, there was a boy who entered the classroom. The teacher introduced him as a new student and tasked him to sit with a girl, who was then supposed to become his buddy. The girl didn't really have much of an impression of him, because he looked just like any other guy. He was really shy and did not talk to anyone much except the girl. As time passed, they became closer friends and soon he started to bully her just like how any guy would. But at the same time, he was warm and kind to her. He would protect her from the others who disturbed her, and he would always take her side and help her through tough times. They survived boring lessons together, got scolded for messing up experiments weekly, and went through awkward activities together. They were young and did all sorts of foolish things.She would matchmake him with other girls and he would reject every one who professed their love to him. She never knew he was important to her until the day she thought she had made him bleed. Never was she so concerned about a person, and never did she cry for someone. He was important to him too, and he never failed to let her know how much she meant to him. She was special to him, but he did not know that he was extraordinary in her eyes. He went so far to help her out, as he gave her spiritual guidance to help her cope with the confusion in her heart. Even when she was about to lose her faith, he was always there to fulfill it back. However, he knew there was so much he could not do, so he led her to God, where she can seek refuge in His embrace.

This is a story of my angel.

-

Three years have passed. How much have we grown.

2011-08-09T20:49:00.002+08:00

So ugly ducklings do turn into beautiful swans :)

Prelims is like in 4 days and I'm feeling nothing :/

JUST WANNA PLAY THE IPHONE GAMES!!!!!!

Feeling shiok for GP and chem hahaha I think I have improved!!!! But I have 3 other subjects... Lol...... In 4 days................

2011-08-02T00:05:00.003+08:00

I think kids are weird.

1. Why speak about love when you don't even know what love is?

2. Your life isn't a bit exciting no matter how much you exaggerate it.

3. You say this but actually you want that.

I think people in school are annoying.

1. Two boys kept speaking during math lecture today like two uncles haggling for a cheaper price for fish.

2. Stupid fat girl spoke (and flirted with some ugly boy) loudly in the concourse.

3. Some attention deficit people brought flowers to school on some random day to make people notice them.

4. J1 kids leave their bags on the benches and thus depriving others of a seat.

5. People act so nonchalant but you never know what is concealed within them.

I need my own space.

2011-07-17T14:19:00.006+08:00

THIS POST IS FOR NICHOLAS (INSERT SURNAME AND CHINESE NAME HERE)

Really need to start studying cos I HAVEN'T?!?!?!?! URGH

Yesterday was the best day I watched HP and it was

A W E S O M E E E E E E E E E ! Ending sucked cos the book's ending sucked. But it was up to expectations. Ha. Feeling kinda empty now that there won't be any HP movies anymore :(

There was this awesome Nebo thing at Ehub and I bought loads of goodies including this stupid giant gummy bear that I wanted to buy for Josh for his bday. But I already bought liquor chocolates so I didn't wanna buy it but decided to cos I'm a good sis, and cos I had $10 funding hahahahaha :P Anyway it was a good day. And I caught/got caught so many times in the day haha stupid.

KAY TIME TO START STUDYING. I feel so screwed every time I go physics. Need to start worshiping my blue physics baby NOW

>:/

2011-07-11T00:26:00.002+08:00

Waiting for my clue on CSI: Crime City to be analysed before I sleep, while trying to do GP homework. Hahaha. Ms R will probably kill me if I don't do my homework, but what difference would it be if I submitted a substandard one? GP will forever be my love ♥

Went to Zen Cafe at East Coast last Friday. The fresh oysters cost $1 each!!! So cheap right? :D But everything else cost a bomb. (Hahaha as expected). For example, the baked oysters cost $2.80 each and the minimum order is 2 oysters so.. $5.60 is gone.. T.T But the food was awesome so I suppose it's okay to indulge once in a while? Haha.

Already feeling the Monday Blues..

2011-07-10T11:17:00.004+08:00

Familiar?

I JUST FEEL LIKE AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2011-07-10T02:05:00.002+08:00

Oh ya wanted to say

Taxi driver got excited when I told him I live in an opposition ward. He said I'm gonna have a tough life with my boyfriend or husband if the government is still the current one. I have no comments cos who defines good and who defines bad? What is the benchmark for comparison? All I know is that I agree with him that Kate Spade (KS) is rubbish.

Taxi uncle says KS is a last minute choice or else the candidates will not constitute a GRC. But surely the team should have found a better candidate??? And anything can change 5 years from today. I don't think I'd be able to tell the uncle that I live in an opposition ward if they continue providing this "service" to our residence.

Nothing intrigues me more than politics and pokemon. Haha.

2011-07-10T01:02:00.002+08:00

At the rate I am blogging, I think I might as well close this thing down. FYI M'sia was boring. AS USUAL.

Crafting my SGC now. Dunno what to write without sounding too BHB. Hahaha. Anyway Ms Seah if you see this, I WANT TO GET PLATINUM FOR MY CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT AWARD!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA

Now that the "June holidays" are over, its "back" to studying again. I just can't study at home man. Should I go out and study everyday? Lol nerd 8-)

Everyone thinks I'm studying very hard. But those who know me true enough knows I'm studying too little. Am I putting on a facade for the distant such that only the closer will see through my smokescreen?

Anyway Doodle Devil is quite fun. Hahahaha. Too bad Doodle God is a paid app and Alchemy has this gross worm that stops me from playing the game.. Speaking of which, I stepped on a cockroach with my bare foot on Thursday. HAHA. The sound was horrifying (crrk), and it didn't die. Wth? Mom said it'll be dead if my sis stepped on it. HAHAHAHAHA :P

Which mouse has 2 legs?

Mickey mouse.

Which duck has 2 legs?

All ducks have 2 legs!!!

HAHA IF YOU THOUGHT THE ANSWER WAS DONALD DUCK! :P

2011-06-20T23:04:00.001+08:00

M'sia tmr to thurs. Bye.

2011-06-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

DO YOU KNOW WHAT RHYMES WITH DUCK?

If I was younger, I'd probably scream it into your ears.

I keep having this recurring urge to kill somebody. The thought of clasping your throat with my bare hands is so tempting. I would firmly hold that elongated neck, slowly pushing into the veins while wearing my smile, until a drop of blood oozes out. More red fluid will flow; slowly, yet steadily.

Then, I would see your body drenched in your filthy crimson blood, while your soul disintegrates into the nothingness. That would be when I'd be at peace.

But no, you know I'd never be at peace. That would only be a bargain to you. Did you ever think that I'd be so merciful to let you go so easily?

Your time is not up, but soon it will be. Soon.

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I just watched Eclipse (the twilight saga) and now I'm feeling kinda morbid. Totally didn't understand the romance part.

2011-06-14T22:31:00.001+08:00

MY NAILS HAHAHA

2011-06-13T23:45:00.001+08:00

2011-06-11T23:32:00.002+08:00

Love?

I don't know if I can believe in me, I don't know if I can believe in you, I don't know if I can believe in us, and I don't know if I can believe in love.

There's a monster living in me called Jealousy, and it's being harnessed by Self-doubt. I need Security to tame it, but too bad I'm devoid of it.

I think I have a new fear called Commitment.

2011-06-06T22:57:00.006+08:00

I crave for peace and serenity but sadly I hardly get it. Apparently it's another preaching session during chem lecture today and I feel sorry to almost every chem teacher who have put in so much effort in teaching us. I swear I tried my best during the paper ya I didn't give up though I really wanted to so I'm just glad I persevered on. I know it's tough being a teacher, I've tried it in Lijiang and it's so tough! So much effort needed to prepare lessons and to familiarize with the lesson plan and contents.. Thanks for all your help and trying to make us all love chem but.. Somehow it is not working... I will work hard for chem ya can't see U anymore.

I keep thinking of shopping and going out but the piles of homework just keep reminding me to come back to reality..

Yeah I went to chompchomp and udders on Friday with TXR and C, which was just awesome hahaha :D And watched xmen with my family yesterday which was great too! D says that Azazel and Mystique gave birth to Nightcrawler hmmmm I wonder if it's true...

2011-06-03T23:44:00.002+08:00

Today is the worst day I've felt in a really long time.. I failed my first ever major test after 2 bloody long years and worst thing is that the subject is my favorite - physics, and I could have passed if I did not do all the careless mistakes!!!!! :'( :'( :'(

I think some people are so immature and useless, sometimes wonder why do such people exist in the world. I think I stick too closely to my principles and sometimes, that may not be advantageous to me cos people will think that I'm uncompromising. But seriously, I don't think I should lower my standard cos of them. I HATE it when people use their relationships to make decisions relating to work. Seriously, get a hold of yourself, look at yourself in the damn mirror, and ask yourself how rational are you? Do you lack a brain such that you must use your heart to decide every single little thing? Even after working together for a long time, these leopards still can't change their spots and sometimes I ask myself, have I been a useless teammate cos I have failed to educate them? Sometimes I just want to give up but I know I can't because I have expectations to fulfill and dreams to live up to. I won't let these vermin get in my way, and I gotta toughen up and show them what I'm made of!!!

It sucks when a useless person says you're useless, but the feeling of people standing up for you and scolding that asshole is awesome. I must be a sadist cos I feel so wonderful that my voice is finally being heard when more and more people unmask your hideous self and agree with me that you're just plain l-o-u-s-y.

Just damn pissed off now, and wishing some people can just choke and die immediately.

2011-06-02T23:36:00.002+08:00

A picture of yourself with 10 facts

This is my picture pose: v(^^)v

Love Pokemon esp Pikachu :D

Love flowers

Hate durians

Don't really like to receive soft toys as gifts though I always get them...

In dire need to colour my nails cos I love colours!!!!

Sometimes I don't behave like my age.. (Like how I am so overly mature hehe)

I have a memory of a goldfish :o

I have a craving for Auntie Anne's now..... :(

I am not a very nice person >:)

A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Who else? ♥

A picture of the cast from your favorite show

MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE :D

A picture of your favorite night
Can't remember

A picture of your favorite memory

When I went to Disneyland when I was super young hehehe somehow I can remember myself twirling in the Beauty and the Beast teacups and seeing Cinderella! :D

A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day
I really spent a long time thinking but I can't think of anyone, sorry.

A picture of your most treasured item

SMELLIKITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTYY ♥♥♥

A picture that makes you laugh

Lol my crazy mom

LOL I JUST HAD TO PUT THIS PIC HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Yeah who else will follow me to toilet in school, cheer me up when I'm down (though I cheer them up too!), always go out with my even till now, and still so rubbish hahahaha :P

A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

LIKE STUFFING 20 OF THE WHEELS (FOOD FROM VENDING MACHINE) THING INTO OUR MOUTHS TILL THEY GOT SOGGY AND GROSS AND REYMOND ALMOST VOMITTED LOOKING AT THEM HAHAHAHAHA

A picture of something you hate

CHILDREN WHO RUN AROUND AND VOMIT EVERYWHERE OMG THE BOTTOM RIGHT ONE LOOKS DAMN SCARY :O

A picture of something you love

ROSES! TURQUOISE ONES HEHE :D

A picture of your favorite band or artist

A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

My mummy and daddy! Dunno what I would be today without them ♥

A picture of something you want to do before you die

Scuba dive, Sky dive, and Bungee Jumping!!! :D

A picture of someone who inspires you

Lol sorry lazy to rotate but you get the point :D I won't be so motivated to study if Mr Oh didn't motivate and inspire me to do so!! Obviously there are other people.. And also Helen Keller and Aya from 1 Litre of Tears.. They really inspire me to do things that I initially did not dare doing.

A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Can't remember, means should be nothing. Lol..

A picture of your biggest insecurity

Cheating.. :(

A picture and a letter
?!

A picture of somewhere you’d love to travel

AMSTERDAM LAND OF ARTS :D

A picture of something you wish you could forget
Nah no picture of that..

A picture of something you wish you were better at

LOL

A picture of your favorite book

A picture of something you wish you could change

A picture of your favorite day
Don't know.. Almost everyday significant hahaha

A picture of something that means a lot to you
(Refer to smellikitty pic! :D)

A picture of yourself and a family member
(Refer to above pics)

A picture of something you’re afraid of
For the safety of my sanity and to preserve sleep, no thanks!

A picture that can always make you smile
Almost every pic above lol

A picture of someone you miss

I'd go mad finding pics lol I don't think it can even fit here. You guys know who you are, and you guys know I love all of you! ♥

2011-06-02T22:47:00.002+08:00

YEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH I PASSED MY GP!!!!!

Muahahaha AHEM you can start to dig a hole to bury your face now >:D You should have buried it a long time ago anyway.

I just realised there's bus 74 at a bus stop near my house, and bus 74 goes straight to NP.. If I went to NP.... My life would be so different. Perhaps I would lead a better life, become a happier person, never having to endure heartaches and heartbreaks, and maybe I won't have to suffer so much. But too bad, I didn't.

Do I regret? Nah ;)

I try to forget you. Sometimes it'll work, but most of the time it doesn't. I'll always remember your grassy hair and your cool aura and how so many girls wanna be with you but fail to. Sometimes I wonder what did I do to deserve all the goodness but most of the time I wonder why did I give it all away. Sometimes I wonder whether it's worth it.

2011-05-30T00:13:00.004+08:00

This is so awesome I love my new blogskin hahahaha. I need to blog more regularly cos some people keep bugging me to post more but I think they're the only people who read it? Hahaha. I don't really write much cos I don't think people wanna know how boring and pathetic my life is... :(

ANYWAY

I watched Pirates(OTC4) last sat/sun and it was okay. It was tough not to fall asleep (cos I was tired not cos it was boring - it was actually not bad!). Actually it was the first time I actually watched a full Pirates movie hahaha. The blur movie man forgot to give us our 3D glasses so when the sound system said we could put on our glasses, we were like O_O WHAT GLASSES?! Haha lucky we didn't get penalised or have to pay for it and we didn't even miss a minute of the show! :D Yeah go watch the movie yourself I can't give any spoilers cos the show is so predictable already. What else can a pirate show be other than fighting, treasures, and Johnny Depp?

Hmmm I am currently hooked on this iPhone app called "City Of Secrets". It's a game. HAHA DUH. Okay actually I was supposed to come online to do a study plan but.. LOOK AT HOW MUCH MORE I ACHIEVED!!! YAY HAHAHAHA Okay I really need to be serious soon >:/

I love myself so much. Aww. I feel so happy every time I see Pikachu :') And OMG DID YOU SEE THE PIKACHU WHO IS BITING THE POKEBALL WITH THE :3 FACE?!?!?!????! THAT'S MY FAVOURITE!!! ♥

2011-05-29T23:19:00.005+08:00

Letter to self and other procrastinating idiots.

IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP, MAN!

MIDYEARS ARE OVER! AND HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D

Wait a min...

WHAT ARE HOLIDAYS??!?!?!????!!?!??!?!!!!!!!!

2011-05-09T18:23:00.004+08:00

Here's a little happiness for everyone to get through this mugging period :)

Mid years may suck but remember, there's still prelims, pre As, and The Real Deal.

Like how we shouldn't think of how bloody hot it is here??? >:(

Wonder how are D and A are both doing in Tekong under the scorching hot sun... :(

2011-05-07T22:25:00.006+08:00

My new wallpaper :D

ELECTIONS NOW

You rarely see the whole country being so united. I think this is more exciting than national day.

CLICK ON THIS AWESOME POKEMON GALLERY

It looks so real!! This guy is so uber talented! :D

SOME COOL WEBBY FROM KRIST

Some guy makes everything from rubbish. Kinda cool hahaha but some are crap.

2011-05-07T01:41:00.002+08:00

I know I'm kinda late in posting this but.. LOL

It took a few months to complete a 10 day quiz. LOL.

Day Ten: One confession

I always ask people to chill when there're just so much uncertainty in me as well.

I feel telepathic. The night that I couldn't sleep, my grandma had to be hospitalised. Yesterday, I cried before I slept because I knew you were suffering. And damn I was right. Why can't striking lottery be as easy.

Sometimes I wish I could just take some of the pain away.

2011-04-11T21:50:00.002+08:00

It's a man-eat-man world out there.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

-_- Nonchalant

:3 Kitty

I'm happy that we're friends again, but then again it's not as though I make eternal enemies. I'm just glad to have you back :) And I felt v amused when I said, "I'm definitely going to hell if I ever scold her." Really, she is an angel in my eyes :)

In my dictionary, "give up" doesn't exist.

Just do your best and all will come to you.

2011-04-11T00:58:00.003+08:00

JULIA ♥ EFFICIENCY

Just felt like saying so :)

I think I am hell efficient. HAHA.

I nearly broke my own heart when I saw that Dom wasn't my friend on Facebook, then I realised I was looking at another boy with the same name and from the same school! OMG! Hahahahaha. There're some things that can never be erased ♥

Well my CCC journey is gonna end, and while I'm stuck here doing my last straw of CCA work, I just can't stop thinking what would life be without CCC. I think it's gonna be so much emptier and I'll have so much more time to study. Not sure if that's a good thing! I'll definitely miss work and miss all my CCA mates. I never thought I'd feel a sense of attachment to the CCA or even to the juniors. But now, the feeling's here to stay.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

E F F I C I E N C Y

Patience

Loyalty

2011-04-04T22:24:00.003+08:00

Extremely good website for cool art stuff! Okay I am so tempted to make cards but... A LEVELS :(

I keep feeling like crying every time I read my previous blog post (esp the Mr Oh part) lol retarded :') Anyway I think life now is good and I'm enjoying being slaughtered in school with the mountainous amount of homework, cos I know I will pull through and I'm gonna ace my As! Went to Underwater World last Friday and it's disappointing that the standard has deteriorated the last time I've been there. I liked the place since I was a kid cos I was like a water freak who always engaged in water sports and I absolutely loved dolphins!!!!

One Litre Of Tears had a Underwater World scene too, and it was very romantic!! Hahaha! Anyway this is the only show I've cried while watching, and the part where I cried is in this video, so you can go find it when you're bored! Anyway, the guy just reminds me of my little brother whom I loved for so long. The words could describe how happy I feel when I see that he's happy, then the rest isn't related to me anymore hahaha. I think that when one is truly in love, the love will last for eternity.

I don’t know what’s going to happen in the future. But, right now, my feelings are 100% not a lie, I can say that with confidence. For me, as long as it’s you saying it, it doesnt matter how slowly you say it, I’ll still listen. If you can’t talk on the phone, then I’ll come to see you, just like this. I’m not a dolphin, you are also not a dolphin, if you want to walk, no matter how slow it will be, I’ll walk with you. Right now, I might not be that reliable. One day, maybe I’ll be able to help. Things can’t be the same as they were before, but there’s this kind of feeling that’s linking us together. I don’t think we’re living in different worlds. I… when it comes to you… I like you. … Maybe… I think I like you”
- Asou Haruto (Nishikido Ryo)

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Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Someone pinching and eating his pimples (trust me, these people actually exist) / male chauvinist pigs / Chemistry homework :O / Mad online gamers

2011-03-24T00:19:00.003+08:00

I'M DA MANNNNNNNNNN! HAHAHA

Finally passed my napfa test after 3 weeks of trying and pulling both my thigh muscles and getting laughed at for hobbling up and down the stairs omg. I did the 5 stations as well as the 2.4km run in one PE lesson LOL. Seriously, WHAT THE HELL?! Never would I expect I would have the strength and perseverance to struggle for one hour doing something I don't really enjoy (esp SBJ), and yet pass it! YEAH!!! Finally I don't have to jump anymore yippeeee :D :D :D

This breakthrough has told me that since I have the ability and willpower to challenge myself physically to do the seemingly impossible, I will have the strength to overcome the hectic life of As as well!!! I feel like..

"Julia has gained a level! What? Julia is evolving! Congratulations! Your Julia has evolved to a MEGASUPERDUPERPROANDINTELLECTUAL Julia!"

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Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

My daddy: Cos without him, I'd wouldn't have the motivation and support (and pocket money) to persevere on. And daddy always makes me laugh especially when I'm really tired and stressed!

My mummy: Cos she always spends so much money on me and drags me to go shopping, and is always so supportive of me and so kind to my buddies. Never fails to help me buy rubbish like milk and pads lol.

Krist: Cos I think my life will be so much more boring without her. She's so happy and cheerful and it always spreads to me so yay! She never fails to cheer me up and relieve me from stress most probably cos she doesn't go through the shit that I do! It feels really good to receive her emails after a long day of school ya! It's so interesting and unique that we're two total opposites but we can get along awesome! :D

Derek: Who else will I cry to when I'm sad, or treat as my punching bag? He's so super patient and always listen to my rants (which can sum up to be quite a lot). I wouldn't even study if not for his encouragements and beliefs (as well as other people la lol!). But seriously, if he didn't make me study two years back, I don't think I'd even open any book now (I'm not a fan of studying). There're so many things I'm grateful for, too many in fact. But THAT'S WHAT BFFS ARE FOR HAHAHAHA

Mr Oh: DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A MR OH FAN HAHAHAHAHA. Anyway, I'm truly thankful and really in awe of Mr Oh, cos he is so filial and sweet. I wanna be like him and look after my parents when I grow old, and be nice to all my buddies hehe :) When I was at my lowest, MR LEE WAS ON MC!!! -_- So I didn't really have anybody to turn to except for TRICIA AND ZHENYI AND ROHINI AND DAYANA AND HUIJUAN AND WT AND LINUS AND EVERYONE FROM 1S02 LOL. Anyway, Mr Oh was there for me and he talked to me and asked me what my dream was. Actually, I didn't really have any so I just said without thinking that I wanted to be an art therapist. He was really genuinely interested and said it's a unique field and I can set myself to do it if I want to. Because of his belief in me, I started to have more confidence in my abilities and so this became my top goal. If Mr Oh didn't help me to set life goals for myself, I'd still be the aimless person as I was then.

(Last person lol five is too little)

Hadi: I totally loved him and treated him as my big brother!!! If not for him, I wouldn't have gone to church and wouldn't have encountered so many miracles. It feels really good to be accepted somewhere and knowing that God will always support you and love you no matter what. In the past, I was an atheist and didn't know what spirituality was. But now, though I'm still unsure, I make the effort to thank God for blessing me with a healthy body and seeing the colours of life. Without him, I wouldn't find peace with myself and would definitely never have become so happy and optimistic as I am today.

It's the people in your life that shape who you are, so do mix with the right people and adapt the right traits. I'm glad I met the right people :)

2011-03-16T22:50:00.002+08:00

WTH. Some idiotic and notorious physics teacher scolded me for speaking in broken english in a bloody crude manner. She was like, "Every sentence you spoke is broken. How to pass GP. See so many people retake j2 cos they fail GP." If she wasn't a teacher and if I lost my cool, she'd be drowning in my criticism. If I failed GP, 97.2% of the school would be illiterate. She'll definitely be one of them. She should seriously get herself pregnant and leave the bloody school. To think I even defended her when everyone was bitching about her.

She's like the antonym of Mr Oh. Seriously. And why is she acting young and calling herself a Ms when she is like so freaking old and married? -_-

And some bloody immature J1 kid vandalised on my class board. Damn it. When school reopens I am going to report it to the discipline committee. If I catch that asshole, I am going to deafen him and burn him alive. But I always believe in Karma, so I should let Retribution do his job :)

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Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Slack / Meet wrong company / Misplaced trust / Overuse my computer / Pulled my muscles during SBJ / Procrastinate?

2011-03-14T00:35:00.003+08:00

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Hugging Smellikitty.. and snuggling with him hehehe / POKEMON!!! / A levels / CCA / Issues on life and death / Random things that pop in my mind / People

"It takes 7 seconds for food to pass from mouth to stomach. A human hair can hold 3 kg. The length of a penis is 3 times the length of the thumb. The femur is hard as concrete. A woman's heart beats faster than a man's. Women blink twice as much as men. A woman has read this entire text. A man is still looking at his thumb."

2011-03-11T00:21:00.001+08:00

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Don't be a male chauvinist pig (MCP) / Be humble / Empathise and understand my plight / Tolerate my rubbish and violence / Do sweet things for me hehehe / Don't be an idiot / Smell nice / I dunno lah

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COMMON TESTS FINALLY OVER WOOHOOOOOOOO :D
Tons of suffering but thank goodness I have my friends and Smellikitty hehehe I love him so much la. So why is Smellikitty a male? Cos I can't be kissing girls right!! Hahahaha :P Super high ya hahaha so shiok to be free for a week! :D

2011-02-27T23:52:00.000+08:00

My new bible
http://www.seab.gov.sg/examTimeTable/2011GCEATimetable.pdf

2011-02-20T22:15:00.002+08:00

Day Two
Nine things about yourself

I don't follow timetables. Getting lost is my hobby. I'm not nice to everybody. I believe in karma. I hate the idea of having kids more than chinese and chemistry mixed together. I try my best to stay optimistic though I secretly think my life is shitty. I'm not the mushy kind of person but I like it when someone does something sweet for me. I'm very interested in the cognitive mind and politics. I wish to be able to constantly improve myself.

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Went to malaysia today and bought many things! Really happy to buy pesticides so I can kill all the pesky mosquitoes in my house!!!
It's only day two and I'm already missing you.

Feel so shitty when I look at my homework lump. It's like my teachers are trying to set a guiness world record for the tallest man-made mountain -_-

2011-02-19T22:44:00.003+08:00

Saw this on someone's blog: Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

I remembered I attempted the 30 day challenge but I failed... :(
Try it out if you have the time kay! HAHA

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Day one

Miss y'all! / I hate chemistry / Don't ever give up and keep trying! / Where are you / I may not be your favourite student, but I'm definitely gonna be your A student! / Stupid / Smellikitty is so lonely without you! :( / Tomorrow will be a better day / Meet up soon kay! / Damn

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Hehehe I am a happy girl today cos
1. D is happily in Japan
2. It was a productive day
3.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! :D :D :D

This is weird I just spotted a grammar mistake on the Channel Newsasia website :/
"Experts said the problem is not unique to Singapore. Other developed economies like the US and fast emerging economies like China is also facing the challenge."

Maybe Channel Newsasia should hire ME instead hehehe :D
Anyway check out the website for details regarding Budget 2011 :)

2011-02-16T00:02:00.002+08:00

Just wish that this was all meant to be.

Had an awesome day today with 3 tests. Seriously.. Are the teachers love deprived or what.. -_- I gave my teachers chocolate though hehehe :D I taught J the art of studying during our 3min morning session lol. Happy that I could do the math test teehee and even happier that I didn't get a single digit for chem test!

HAHA just wanna say that my wish came true and for that moment I thought the world stopped spinning just to look at me and you :)

2011-02-13T22:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CNY

I AM NINETEEN YIPPEEEEEEE! I can't seem to blow off all the candles cos there are too many!!!

So I spent my week going out and looking at all my colourful kitty gifts and feeling so thankful to all my friends hehe ♥

I wish nobody will ever forget me and we'll all be friends forever :)

Kay actually I had a lot to write, but when I looked down at my homework, I just forgot everything except work :( N said her life sucks for 1 entire week already and I bet she's gonna say it for the whole year lol. Well I can't deny mine sucks too :/

Black swan is damn good but damn scary.

Too bad my dearest boy (LOL A) is like doing something worthless tomorrow while I spend my vday with the P hahahahaha. Not really looking forward to it cos I can predict myself dozing off. HOW I WISH I RECEIVE A BOUQUET OF BLUE ROSES TOMORROW HAHAHAHA.

Nothing can ever beat Smellikitty.
I'll miss you when you're gone.

2011-02-06T17:38:00.003+08:00

Hello this is the first time I'm blogging via iPhone  hahaha!! Testing out my emoji pics now I hope google chrome can sense it: 

LOL HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!!! Doing homework during new year is so pathetic; I bet every teacher will say it'll be worth it in the end, and I agree!! Hahaha. Gotta go to my dream course man! 

Currently struggling with vectors.. Seriously I don't know if I'll ever use it when I grow up. Hmmm. But at least I feel smarter than yesterday haha 

Life with 2S17 has been great so far, the girls are so high and they're all so nice!! We went for the SR picnic  and we're like the minority classes who went! So enthu right hahaha 

Okay currently the highlight of next week is econs and math test lol...  And CCA bazaar as well as invitational tea session . I'm kinda looking forward to it cos I can finally see my juniors and can pass the baton to them! Just hope we get everything done in time, and hope I can pass my tests too! Lastly, it's my birthday this Thursday and I SECRETLY hope I get gifts LOLOLOL . Nah just kidding, feeling kinda "meh" about it, it's like a year has passed so fast and I'm already in my last teenage year!! Time really flies! 

The guys are going to army and I think I feel more excited than them haha!! Gonna SMS yc  later to make fun of him HAHAHA.  It's so fun to make fun of him about his best buddy (the pimple popper)! Speaking of which, I was a game facil!! Hahaha! My awesome partner was P and it's crazy to lead the game with him! Our game is called under the sand  (dig letters in the sandpit to solve a crossword puzzle) and it has so many problems haha but nevertheless, I still enjoyed myself! It rained on the day and that seriously dampened my spirits  but it's okay cos P is so funny hahaha so I practically spent the day laughing at him and chatting with W and making fun of A !! And I think I made an impression cos I saw a junior staring at me in school hahaha I hope I left a good impression!! :D

P says that everyone is a bastard and I agree with that. There was this person who insulted a group of others, and the group insulted her back. Though it was really immature and brainless of the person to do so, the rest were nowhere better. It's akin to those slashing cases where people kill those who provoked them. Who should get the blame - the insulter or insulted? Both should but sadly it's the insulted who gets the blunt of the blame. Same thing for this issue - don't return the favour to others, let Retribution do its job.

Also completed Con Amore and Ling Kwang Home haha! Good yeah! And I made a new friend named R yay!! 

Okay back to vectors.

2011-01-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

No time to blog la.

Just wanna say my birthday is coming and I am looking forward to gifts hahaha. And I have no time to shop for cny clothes. So many tests coming #)(@$()#!*)($*!.\

And A keeps reminding me of how much I hate chem lol.

2011-01-16T09:38:00.004+08:00

It's been forever since I met the council girls and it's so awesome to see them once again! ♥ (Except Meihwee cos I see her everyday now hehe :P) I miss everyone even more now :(

School's been really hectic with the rushing of holiday and real homework. I love GP even more now but my love for chem is still the same. Now, I feel weird when I am stoning. I bet everyone used to have this feeling too, now I can finally understand how they felt, what they've been through, and why they make so many weird dreams - cos I make them too!

Three dreams I had yesterday:

1. I was arguing with some random teacher why the stoichiometric equation was like that and insisting mine was correct, before he took out beakers and did the experiment live. But I couldn't see the experiment cos I had to wake up for school :/

2. A girl was approaching me and looking at me like how Scotty would (means super act cute).

3. I dreamt I was walking with Mr Lee and we were talking about something, when he giggled (to hold his laughter -_-) and then suddenly burst out laughing! Yeah then he got really high and danced the YMCA in a really weird fashion LOL I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS DREAM HAHAHAHA

Really hope 2011 will be an awesome year! It's been great so far :)

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."
— Mitch Albom (Tuesdays with Morrie)

2011-01-03T22:23:00.003+08:00

LOL THIS WAS ME LAST YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(The idiotic one is Derek - duh!)

Hahahaha I am proud to say that I HAVE ACHIEVED MY 2010 RESOLUTION OF BEING MORE DEMURE!!!! (Even if it's only by 0.000000000000001%!) Hehehe I am so proud of myself :D

This year, my new year's resolution is to..

F O C U S

Gonna ace the As man!

I wish my year would be happier than the last, though I thought the last was already very happy! Hmmmm. Just hope the inevitable won't happen.. Sigh I have to stop thinking about it :(

Ok I really need to start doing my GP cos I keep looking at Facebook instead! I sort of started it last month but it's still like barely touched lol. School should have known better than to put it on Aspire -_-

Can't think of anymore resolutions, sigh. Brain is filled with CHAAAAAAAAALET!!!! HAHAHA :P

2011-01-03T14:24:00.005+08:00

Just read The Five People You Meet in Heaven again. Usually I don't reread books but this book is just too awesome. I think I'm gonna try rereading my other Mitch Albom books before the school reopens haha.

Thinking of the book makes me calm.

Few quotes I always keep in my mind to help me get through life:

Anger is a poison that eats you from inside.
- Mitch Albom

Though the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it.
- Helen Keller

Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.
- Unknown

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
- Philippians 4:13

Love is an exploding cigar we willingly smoke.
- Unknown

When you point at others, four other fingers point back at you.
- Mr Bong

You can always look for me when you need help, cos we're family.
- Joey

You can't keep trying to control things out of your reach. Learn to relax.
- Trevor

Don't ever call me crying again.
- Wayne

Just felt like sharing.
There are some things I'll never forget; I miss the old times.

2010-12-29T22:04:00.001+08:00

Picture of the happiest xmas girl ever :)

Hope everyone had an wonderful xmas too! :D

2010-12-14T00:14:00.002+08:00

Guess who?

1. Let's go to night safari!!!!!!!! Or the zoo!!!!!!!! Er which one opens at night ah?

2. Julia, can you join my facebook game and send me the mystery package everyday? Can help me to speed up my buildings too? Your help is greatly appreciated, thanks ah!

3. Look at those trees!!!! It reminds me of one of my video games!! Wanna hear the soundtrack? :D

4. I am so kind (a)

5. EH WHAT THE HELL

6. Julia I wanna kill you already!!!!!!!!!! *Strangles me*

7. You, demure??? Well at least more demure than Hj!

8. Huh? *Stone*

9. Hello barry, oh no, aaron, AHHHH, I MEAN JULIA DON'T KILL MEEEEEE

10. You evil girl, what moon with craters huh!

11. If you have trouble, you can always find me, cos we're family

12. So lame...

13. Eh Julia.. Long time no see ah.. How's life?

14. Still so small

15. Hey Julia, still so small and cute!!

16. Hiiiiiiiiiiii you're still as short and black but I love you!

17. Eh you cheeky girl!!!

18. Piang piang piang!!!!

19. I'm hungry...

20. Huh.. So you want to eat zheng can or small one?

21. Oh!!! You know the dessert shop hor... YA SO DELICIOUS RIGHTTTTT!!!

22. Now then you know I'm the best right? xD

23. Who can be more handsome than AHEM AHEM

24. Hey Julia! How you doing man!

25. Hey Juliaaaaaa... LOOK AT MY HAMSTER HAHAHAHAHA

26. I'm so fat.....

27. Hey don't say me alr lar... You also sotong lor!

28. Hello naughty girl!

29. Aiyoh xiao mei ah xiao mei!

30. Hello hello! Chio bu here!

31. Jiejie.. You must sit the slide with me okay!

32. I know this place ah.. The food is very good!!!

33. Aiyoh lah, lucky I am not so sotong! :)

34. Hahahaha Julia! You still haven't changed a bit huh! Must meet more next time okay!

35. Hey let's just tell everyone we're together la!!

Answers
1. Linus 2. Kenny 3. Bani 4. Tricia 5. Zhenyi 6. Wanteng 7. Rohini 8. Dayana 9. Reymond 10. Nicholas 11. Joey 12. Kenneth 13. Aaron 14. Mus 15. Peter 16. Krist 17. Derek 18. Jianzheng 19. Wanyi 20. Lirong 21. Wanxin 22. Sijie 23. Zach 24. Clinton 25. Liesah 26. Daniel 27. Jingyi 28. Huijuan 29. Meihwee 30. Ximin 31. Kennese 32. Sulenni 33. Wenda 34. Yilin 35. My dream boy hahahahahahaha

Really, I dream of the same person every time I have a dream. Creepy o_o

2010-12-13T01:35:00.003+08:00

Usually I don't blog twice a day but anyway just feel like doing so cos I found inspiration.

1. I just finished watching Under the Hawthorn Tree, which is a CHINESE show made in CHINA and I think it is nice :) (Spent 100min reading subtitles though). It's a romance movie which isn't extremely mushy but still touching in a subtle way. Everyone should seriously watch it. Not gonna give spoilers, just gonna say it's gonna stay in your mind for a while hehe :) I always can't sleep after watching good movies.

2. This is weird but even the strangest people can find "love". I know I've said this like a million times about freaks dating freaks and nerds dating nerds, but this is different. I don't understand how people can say they're in love, pretend that they're in love, but they're not. How can you say you love somebody if you can't tell the difference been love and lust? I bet people say stuff like love is blah and blah, while lust is like the temporary blah and blah.

Just felt like saying this cos I think people who rebound almost immediately after break-ups are horrid. How can you say you love someone, then claim you have never loved him, and then tell another person that you loved him? What's the meaning of love then?

Does this mean I will never use those words ever again?

3. I think pick-up lines are really gross, and I just saw a litany of it on someone's facebook LOL.

4. Keep thinking of army nowadays cos I think it's cool for girls to be enlisted but not cool if the girl is not cool. Lol. Anyway I'd definitely enlist myself if I didn't have to waste this extra year of my life. J and L are going on the eve of my birthday, and Little B is going on my birthday nooooooooo.. All my favourite boys boohoohoo :'(

5. I'm a slave for my CCA. D says I'm just being manipulated. I must be a masochist cos I hope more people approach me hehe :)

2010-12-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

Currently sorting out mom's iPhone. I seriously think the iPhone is overrated. The only thing I like about it is the games.

Anyway I'm so tired, two more chalets to go, and loads of homework to clear, but procrastination's here :(

Oh well, there will always be a tomorrow.

2010-12-10T03:32:00.004+08:00

Came back today but going off tomorrow :)

Yc and Linus are the worst boys ever cos they:
1. STOLE MY BED
(When you thought that was bad enough..)
2. Pillow fight + team up to squash me
3. Didn't return me my bed though I tickled their feet hahaha

Tricia is the best cos she:
1. Accompanied me to stay in the chalet! Though our bed size and my sleeping time shrank :/
2. Made me less bored and have someone to talk to :)
3. Helped me to scold Yc and Linus hahahahaha

Anyway this is like the first time I talked to quite a few people lol and I can't really say I like all of them, but at least I like most of them :) :) :) K la I only dislike one person and IT'S NOT GABRIEL. If smelly pimples eater went then I would dislike two, BUT THANK GOODNESS NO HE DIDN'T COME LOL I HOPE HE WON'T FOR OUR OTHER CLASS CHALET AHHHHHHH

Anyway let me share my research,
People who are scared of tickles:
1. Linus
2. Bani
3. Derek
People who have no emotions:
1. Yongcheng
2. Ryan
People whom I don't dare to try:
1. Tricia (for the safety of my ears :D)

Hahahaha alright gonna spend the next few days with my beloved cousin Kenneth and we're gonna go dating at Wild wild wet and watch a romantic Disney movie together hahahah ♥

2010-12-06T01:37:00.004+08:00

I can't tell you I love you without blinking. Actually I can't even say the word love. Hahahaha. Everyone has their phobias in life.

Somehow I think this whole thing is gonna topple before I can even anticipate. I've been given the chance to be happy but somehow I'm just returning it back. I'm not sure why but this is just the way life is.

Going to start playing another online game called Aruarose. Actually I've played it before with the person who was my oxygen. Hahaha. Now I'm doing the same thing but with a different person. But I don't think the feeling will be the same. I think it may actually be better hehe :)

2010-12-01T00:07:00.002+08:00

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn't have
Shaking my legs when I'm ultra bored :/

My fingernails are now candy colours!!! Hahaha love the holidays cos I get to do awesome stuff with my nails hehe :D Gonna paint my left fingernails shades of blue soon. Nothing beats jigglypuff!!!

Need to buy a new sports shoe soon.. Cos the right sole of my shoe came out.. I wanna get an awesome shoe like:

Lol truth is, I can't sleep cos I just finished playing 999.nds and I got the scary ending :( Boohoohoo. Shall talk about it in daylight when I'm less scared...

2010-11-28T02:11:00.004+08:00

New blogskin!!!!!!!!! It just reminds me of an idiom - castles in the air, which kinds of describes me cos I daydream a little too much. Yeah. I love big fonts in case you haven't noticed! o_o Anyway I'm glad I finally changed the blogskin cos the old one was getting mouldy :) And this one is so much lighter and happier, which I hope I will be since HOLIDAYS ARE HERE WOOHOOOOOO :D

I'm so happy that Nex is finally open!!! Hehe I went there twice already and it's so awesome!!!! :D :D :D I buy rubbish each time I go! Not sure if that's a good or bad thing. Oh well :/ The first thing I bought is a secret hahaha but the second thing I bought is even more nail polish!!!! I don't think I'll ever get bored of them hahahaha :D

And I drew a jigglypuff on my thumb hehehe :) Shall upload the pic when I remember to!

So happy As is ending tomorrow yaaaaaayyyy I can finally spend time with my awesome buddies ^(∞)^ and ☻ and 三姑六婆s!!!!!

Homework status: Untouchable :(

2010-11-23T00:00:00.003+08:00

Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends

This is like my favourite pic cos:
1. It's so us - Tricia is the most mature, Zhenyi is acting big, and I'm like the smallest though I'm the oldest hahaha
2. It's such a happy pic :D
3. I really dunno what I'd do without these two crazy girls giving me advice and scolding me and helping me and being so awesome and good to me though I always disappear hehe
4. It's the first photo I thought about when I read the title!!!

As is ending and I'm happy and sad cos:
☺Everyone can finally burn their books or give them to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D
☻Dunno whether I can see everyone again! :(
☻MINE IS COMING AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Just got to know my new classmates today. Z said there are many handsome boys O_O Just feel so ultimate unlucky and I bet everyone reading my blog is secretly sniggering at me :'( Lucky still have S, X, N, M and J hahaha :D

2010-11-12T22:51:00.003+08:00

Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr/LJ/Blogger name

Hello to all the awesome blur people reading my blog! :)

Speaking of which,

Randomz but I stayed over at Jingyi's yesterday! Her house is Wanyi's secondary school dream house LOL SO COINCIDENTAL! :D We watched some screwed movies over the night and then went to sleep cos it was too boring. We watched killers, which was okay, Friday the 13th which is so not scary (to a large extent since it's coming from me hahaha), and some seemingly popular korean show which was so hypnotising. Thennnn the next morning (which is today), I went to school for GP consultation which is my last consultation for the year. Time really flies v fast eh! Happy to finally nail the question hehe but really wanna raise my language marks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:/

I WANNA GET AN A FOR GP DAMN IT

2010-11-10T02:15:00.004+08:00

I LOVE MY BUDDIES HAHAHA

Lalala I'm gonna buy the f21 cat shirt online!!!
F21 @Sommerset: $23.
F21 @Webby: $15.26.
Wth right. I was taking the measuring tape to measure myself and found out that my shoulder width is same as the one stated in the webby but my chest measurements were like wayyyyyyyyyyyy smaller. I WAS LIKE OMG AM I FREAKING ABNORMAL until I found out that I didn't measure correctly hahahaha and yesssssssssss I AM NORMAL (READ THIS K) hehehe *sense of achievement!*

Walao N thought H was a girl :'(
Was looking through my old letters today and I can't stop laughing at my idiocy esp my OBS diary hahaha. Shall upload it when I remember to upload my fb pics!

Went to M'sia today. It's seriously like my second home. I bought tons of rubbish including my favourite CHEAPO PENS HAHAHAHAHA :D And NAIL POLISH HEHEHE J helped me with the colours. Ya the three of us bought 2 bouncy balls to play in chalet and we almost destroyed the display set to get the only red ball out hahaha and stupid J wanted the purple ball which was like so hard to get. I had the super ingenious plan to cut the netting open and ask J to jump and get the purple ball but he was too chicken to cut it and he thought the mannequin was a real person staring at him and got super scared. HAHAHAHA. It was so funny till mom scolded the three of us for being crazy so we didn't get the purple ball in the end.
(Btw try guessing which J is which :P)

K so tired now cya. Just got awesome ideas for awesome people yeah! :D
ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE AND LUVYA'LL!

2010-11-03T23:50:00.003+08:00

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 5 facts about yourself

If I ever become a teacher, I'd teach GP ;)

1. I love to paint my toenails but not my fingernails.
2. My optimal sleeping time is between 11.30pm to 1.30am.
3. I think colour therapy is so awesome!
4. I'm a jealous monster! :/
5. I rarely lie.

2010-11-03T00:47:00.003+08:00

Sigh I dunno whether it's the influence of D and D, but I'm feeling awfully fat zzz JUST LOOK AT MY MODEL OMG :( Anyway, I have spent about 5 minutes on Google to search for how to slim down and this is what I have found to curb my problems:

For big eyes
That's not a problem; I'm just flaunting cos some people have small eyes hehehe :P
However, to remove the black circles under your eyes:
1. Food and nutrition
- Drink loads of water and a glass of chrysanthemum tea daily
- Eat fruits that are rich in Vitamin C and carrots!

2. Facial
- Put ice on your eyes (if the cause of dark circles is inadequate sleep)
- Soak cotton balls in milk and use them to cover your eyes for 15 minutes.
- Rub your hands until it becomes warm and cover your eyes for 30 seconds.
- Rub your hands as above and massage your face
- Open your eyes wide, and look up, then down and then right and left 10 times every morning and evening.
Link(s): 1

For fat cheeks
Damn, just wait for baby fats to shed naturally!! Another way is to suck your cheeks like madness everyday, or grin with your mouth closed. Or just watch your food intake and eat loads of veggies!
Link(s): 1 2

Ok I just found out that to get rid of double chins, you have to rapidly hit your chin everyday. LOL I DON'T KNOW IF THIS IS RELIABLE DATA HAHAHA.

For flaccid arms
Cool exercises to do:
1. It's like push-ups but when you're at the highest point, take your right hand and touch your left shoulder. Then faster put it back to position as you descend. Do the again but this time, take your left and touch your right shoulder. It's just like those clap-while-push-up kind of stance in case you don't know what I mean.

2. Cardiovascular exercises such as cycling, jogging, walking, and swimming

3. Push-ups

4. Modified push-ups.
Keep your knees to the floor and lower your body to the ground. Wait for awhile then raise your body up again. Do this 10 times daily! :)

5. Take a weight (of some kind of filled water bottle if you have no weights) and bend your arms at the elbow down behind your shoulder. Slowly (the slower the better!!!) lift the weights above your head. Do this 10 times!
Link(s): 1 2 3

For big belly
Exercises again!
1. Lie on your back with knees on chest and hands under the butt. Uncurl legs and lift them straight such that they are perpendicular to the ground, then curl legs again. Do 10 times!

2. Jog + swim + kayaking + yoga!

3. Crunches + leg exercises
Link(s): 1 2 3

For thunder thighs
Er exercises, duh.
1. It's like the "right foot forward" leg stretching exercise just that when you do so, the left knee must almost touch the ground. Do this 50 times with each leg!! :O

2. Squats with weights

3. Sit on a chair, then move a little forward to place your hands on the edge of the chair. Then, just dip your body and raise it.
Link(s): 1 2

Ok, just remember, main things one should do is:
1. Watch your diet and stop eating those potato chips
2. Do whole body exercises like jogging also
3. Don't give up! No pain, no gain! :D

Lol sounds v challenging to follow... Oh well Sims 3 is waiting for me!! :) :) :)

2010-10-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

Just received some OMG news hahahahahaha. Life is such a sport.

I really love my friends and I'm kind of sad that they're leaving (as stated in previous post). I'll miss all of youuuu :( Who's going to study with me after school, wait for my CCA to end, eat dinner with me, run with me during Will Run, scream my name when I go up the stage, listen to me rant about life, lend me a shoulder when I need to cry, or just tying my hair when it's all messed up? The times we had were really awesome and two years seemed to skim by so quickly. For these two years I truly felt loved and really, thanks guys I love y'all ♥

Anyway today I spoke to Jh after like forever and I'm so happy!!! Hehe :) Really caught up with old times and he's still so idiotic hahaha and he's ideas are still so crazy. We should all hang out soon yeah! :)

Lalala I love my 老师 cos he's so cute and funny!!! We're totally telepathic cos our conversations are incomprehensible by others except ourselves hehe :) Really hope he does well for As cos I think he deserves it!

When I was a little girl, I always thought Chinatown was called 中国城市 LOL

P.S. I'm like blogging everyday to reflect the ultra bored mood I currently possess -_-

2010-10-22T00:18:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA MEIHWEE THOUGHT HE WAS MY BROTHER!!!! I'd be blessed if he really was :D

ANYWAY COULDN'T STOP SMILING AFTER SEEING HIM ♥ Really brought back good old memories hehe :D I'll always remember how he kept annoying me and drove me nuts since sec 2. Haha I think I have the most awkward and stupid experiences with him (other than Anchal!) but it's like so awesome when I think about it now :)

I'm gonna put this pic as my handphone wallpaper so I will remember all the nice things he did for me (until I find a better picture).

Today we celebrated Tricia's and Michelle's birthdays!!! It was great hahaha both of them were like super paiseh when we sang them the bday song at Fish&Co but YAAAAY! :D Really love council cos everyone's so super fun and we were so close and all. Sigh.

Also, today we got back our results and I think mine are satisfactory but I felt like crying when Ms Low addressed us as "Year twos". I waited one entire year to hear these two words omg and it's finally here. I'm really v happy that I have rightfully promoted in the best way possible and really v grateful to my friends who are so supportive of me.

Finally, tomorrow is graduation day and I'm kind of sad cos all my friends are about to leave the college and then I'll be left all alone. The army's gonna receive many toy soldiers next year, and I hope they all become big and strong when they come out. But most importantly, I hope they will never forget me. I'll most definitely miss them :'(

2010-10-19T23:04:00.003+08:00

My magnificent masterpiece! LOL
I am so tired cos I chionged this overnight and so pissed that the colors are ugly and one piece is missing. Sigh.

Played rock band at Regina's house today!! HAHA IT'S SO FUN :D I am a skilled singer!!! But I totally suck on drums I can't even pass easy mode. Anyway I am a pro rock band guitarist hahahaha Aaron would be proud! I can play the guitar using leftie and normal mode!!!! Anyway this is like so much easier than the real thing. I bet I'll only break guitar strings if I bothered playing it. If not, I'll just be dozing off while playing like how I did just now. Hehehe.

Anyway Lirong's uniform (in the jigsaw) looks like my secondary school uniform. Old memories. I always think of BP when I think of art during those days :(

2010-10-18T01:01:00.003+08:00

Went to Botanical Gardens with the ladies today :)

There were many many tourists and dogs! Most of us were looking at dogs but some people were looking at the Caucasians hahaha! It was fun and I ate a lot of rubbish haha :D

Anyway, I feel a super sense of achievement now cos I just finished something awesome! HEHE

Nerds date nerds, and freaks date freaks. Last year I said a guy like him will never find a girlfriend. A few days back I said he couldn't be together with that weird girl, and now they really are together! Moral of the story is that everybody has an other half, even the weirdest people whom you think will never find one. So maybe we should stop judging people? :)

Teeteetee today I learnt what is the meaning of xin xian from a chou chou!

2010-10-17T00:06:00.003+08:00

Sigh.

My menses is finally here and this just means that my expanding tummy is not made of baby bits but fats :(

Work just never ends, man.

Actually my life is like so boring so I don't really have much to say. Hahaha. And all the KPOs like N will read everything I write! But nevermind cos I am magnanimous enough to share my stories :D :D :D This blog has transformed into a complaints + rants + procrastinations respawn site since the start of this year. I think it's because I have been affected my my environment which is filled with complain kings and queens :/

Ok. Now that promos are over, I can finally learn to play Dota!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha I am looking forward to it though I know I will probably get trashed. But that beats being bored and trashed by the ticking clock.

Yeah I've changed my phone! From some nokia phone to my blue block to samsung omnia to samsung jet to blue block to samsung omnia to my current phone: Nokia x3-02!!! :D YEAH HAHA. This year has been a crazy phone changing year which is like extremely frustrating cos I take quite long to adapt to new phones except my beloved blue block which has officially died on me since three days ago. But I love this phone and so does my aunt (who currently owns an Iphone 4!). I hope she offers a trade with me hehehe

And I've painted my nails to watermelons!!! Nothing big but I feel so happy looking at it cos my toenails are so small and cute and they look so delicious now, yum yum :)

Actually I realised that every time I think of blogging, it'll usually be when I'm like recovering from my post-misery mode. I need to be more optimistic yeah. But now I feel so much better after writing about my phone cos it's really v good! Haha. Just wanna say that today I just realised that my evaporated overnight tears smell like mangosteens in the morning. Haven't been feeling so depressed for a long time, and even after now when I think of it, I still feel the pinch and I know it's my fault and I don't have any right to appeal for anything better. Anyway, this time, I know I really went over the limit.

In case you haven't noticed, each paragraph has no link to the previous or next.

I think that sometimes we yearn for attention from others so much that we neglect the concern from the people we're so used to. That's why some people cry a bit more than others at funerals, and that's why we only cherish people when they're gone. Many of us don't bother about parents and only label them as boring or naggy or outdated. But have we ever thought of how much they sacrificed for us? I know I will never ever have a kid cos I won't be able to raise it well or sacrifice my life for it. But my parents had the courage to conceive me and the ability to raise me to become who I am today. For that, I am thankful. But to others, it may not be the same. Moral of the story: treasure your parents. I don't think you need a bible or some kinda of religious book to teach you filial piety; it should be innate.

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

If tomorrow never comes - Ronan Keating

2010-10-07T22:59:00.001+08:00

Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hatred is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.
— Mitch Albom, The five people you meet in heaven

2010-10-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

I just completed The World Ends With You and it's a cool game :)

Promos are about to end and honestly I'm not really looking forward to it cos I'll be very bored from then on. I don't think I will ever be content with anything :/

Anyway, quite excited about my post promo activities with everybody hahaha. Maybe I should visit the library more often? I don't knowwwww ugh. Nex is opening next month too :D Actually I should be thinking of Chem paper 1 rather than all these hahahaha but I'm like so fatigued and game obsessed. Kinda shitty that I chose not to buy Sims 3 in Malaysia yesterday......

I think one's personality is moulded by environment and circumstance. The environment part is quite duh but the reason why I said circumstance is another factor is because circumstance includes our morality, maturity, responsibilities, etc. It's kind of like a container of intangibles. Because of these ever changing variables, one will never be stagnant, and change will always be apparent. That's quite a pity cos what we like now may not be what we'll like in the future.

Maybe nonchalance is a criteria for happiness.

2010-10-02T00:04:00.003+08:00

Once upon a time, there lived a

Little girl named Sally

Who met this

Sloth

On the

Internet.

She totally didn't know who the heck he was, where he lived, his name, age, or anything.
But she really trusted him, and they were like the

Best buddies ever and ever
:D

One random day, Sally's mysterious buddy told her a secret.
He said, "I'm actually a

Hero

Who has the super powers to

Control weather,

Paint the moon at night,

Change the seasons,

And make rainbows."

Sally was extremely excited as she imagined all the

Wonderful shades and hues of colours and wonders he can conjure.

She wanted to meet him, and he told her that he lived in a

Castle

In

Belgium

And the only way she could reach his castle is to

Dive

And

Swim

Across the

Vast sea.

Being ever so innocent, Sally dressed up in her swimming suit and went out to sea.
She wanted to swim towards the

Castle

But on the way, she met a

Shark

That wanted to eat her up!
Just then, a

Dinosaur

Appeared and ate the shark up!
Then, a mysterious voice boomed.
"Sally, are you alright?"
Sally was in utter shock and disbelief.
Didn't Mrs Lachmey say dinosaurs were extinct over a hundred years ago?
Sally shouted back, "This is all a lie!!! How can dinosaurs appear?"

The unknown voice replied, "No it isn't, silly. All you gotta do is believe. You can relive your dreams if you believe they are true. Make virtual reality and dare to dream."

Sally then heeded the advice of the mysterious voice and believed.
The next moment, she was back home with a dinosaur in her hand.

- THE END -
I love you guys :)

2010-10-01T09:50:00.003+08:00

Just wanted to post suddenly.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IT'S FREAKING CHEM TODAY

HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Okay that's all for this post :)

I can imagine Ms Seah hahahaha

"1S19, better do well for chem aaaahhh. Remember must be best class in the cohort okaaaaaaaaaaay. Jiayou Jiayou!!! Joel ask everybody go to the hall now."

P.S. I dreamt of Mr Goh teaching me econs the day of econs exam. Freaky?

2010-09-19T12:32:00.003+08:00

Good video.

You're not my favourite person, but my only one.

2010-08-31T23:02:00.003+08:00

What everyone should focus on instead of materialistic dreams

Blog TV talked about excessive tuition today. I didn't really listen but dad did. I hope that will sort of discourage him from trying to get me weird tuition classes. I honestly think that our education is screwed and some things aren't worth learning. It's not like I'm gonna use Pythagora's Theorem when I grow up right -_- Anyway, I think that econs is totally relevant unlike chemical bonding or APGP. I remembered I used to ask Mdm Tan why the heck are we studying so much and she didn't have any good response. But it's okay since I rarely get good responses from her. Hahaha.

I bet this is her bathroom!! Or maybe Ms Seah's!

But if I didn't study chemical bonding or APGP, I wouldn't have known awesome teachers like Ms Liu or Mr Lee or all my current teachers. (Though I'd be happy just knowing Mr Tan hahahahaha ♥). I think I've been really lucky cos I always get wonderful physics teachers (Mr Lim, Mrs Teo and Mr Oh!!!!!!!). But I think they are lucky to teach me too HEHE.

Lastly, I miss Mr Leong. And the times where we sat in the rifle range talking about nothing which summed up to something ♥

Happy Teachers' Day :D

2010-08-12T23:48:00.003+08:00

There's this constant fear that there's someone better, which is true,

Because there will always be someone better.

I'm just not good enough.

Flunked my chem. And people don't I flunked it till they realise the joke's not funny. I'm honestly very depressed about my screwed marks and my rank points are plummeting like falling meteors. Life is getting more and more stressful by the day. Promos is creeping faster than I can imagine, and I have not started proper revision though I am still in the midst of procrastination. People are getting more and more competitive and the tension is really strangling me. There's so much expectations here and there, and it's almost impossible to cope. People tell me their problems, and I really understand and empathise their situation. Just wish there would be someone who can understand the shit I'm going through.

I don't think I'm a very nice person, but I strongly think they deserve it.

2010-08-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

Love is an exploding cigar we willingly smoke.

Ha. One of my all-time favourite quotes :)

I know that without a solid foundation, all these hopes and imagination will go to naught. But still, I'll keep wishing.

I seriously need to manage my emotions more properly and professionally, and stop being so impulsive all the time.

We have to return to school to see the YOG torch tomorrow. I'm quite excited about it since it's only a once in a lifetime event, though that's not the general mentality of everyone. I think I am extremely lucky to live in a city which makes a tsunami out of an Orchard Road flood, witness madness fireworks display at Suntec whilst welcoming the new millennium with everyone else in the world, never witnessing any wars or mass violence, and now experiencing the first ever global sports event hosted by Singapore. YAY! I'm a lucky girl :D So, to people who read this, count your lucky stars and stop whining about how you have to return to school tomorrow!

Whine about the massive waves of homework instead! -_-